What is OCD?
OCD stands for obsessive compulsive disorder, which as it states in the name, is a presence of obsessions, compulsions or both. It is classed as an anxiety disorder where a person has obsessive, unwanted, disturbing thoughts and compulsive behaviours (which is when your thoughts have led you to do something repetitively again and again). These thoughts can be very distressing and unpleasant which can interfere in a person’s day to day life.
These thoughts can make you feel very uncomfortable, disgusted at yourself for thinking them, and very anxious. It could be images like harming someone that you love, like your spouse, parents, friends or even yourself, these are called Intrusive thoughts. You start to question yourself, as these thoughts don’t feel right to you, but they are your thoughts. You may start to think why would I think these if I didn’t want them to happen?
My thoughts felt like a broken record, constantly replaying in my mind.
— Katy M
You may even worry that you have said or done something that was inappropriate or obsess over something you have said that may have caused someone to be upset, (you might have said something a day, a week or a month ago, it does not matter how long it was).
The way OCD works is you will have an obsessive thought, then you will feel anxious, then you will do your ‘compulsion’ which will give you a short-term sense of relief. Then the cycle starts all over again. This can happen multiple times a day.
There are other forms of OCD that can be just as terrifying to an individual, these however are classed as more common, such as;
- Being afraid of contamination therefore they will constantly clean
- Constantly checking things are locked and turned off before they leave anywhere
- Wanting things done perfectly, and if they are not, they will punish themselves and re-do it until they feel at ease
- Having things in order whether it’s by colour, size, or things in certain numbers